Older..

Recently, been getting a little naggy.. Haha.. Getting more and more to be like a fatherly figure..

Well, my point of view is, if one is not important to me, I won't even bother to "nag" at all loh.. Haha..

Growing older.. Hmmm.. Observing my own personal attitudes and behaviour for these past year, I realised I've undergone great changes..

1) Energy-less

I'm no longer as energetic as the past.. Seems like my energy level has suddenly gone super low for the past year.. I don't even know why.. Even my physical strength..

2) Fighting Spirit and Determination

Seems like I have lost quite a bit on those two.. Feeling comfortable in my current position as well..

3) Temper

Is more patient and easy going nowadays.. In situations where I'm supposed to get angry in the past, I would not anymore...

4) Speechless

Getting less and less crazy.. Getting less and less rubbish.. Getting less and less lame.. Hahaha.. At least that's what one of my buddies from Poly told me..

Friends used to tell me not to be so hard on myself.. I tried recently and performance-wise, it's real bad.. Hahaha..

Maybe I've slacked too much... I've tried not to be perfectionist.. Trying to be a normal, average human being.. And I've definitely succeeded in it.. Because I am only being a employee and not exploiting any of my talents at all..

Just making sure everyday's workflow is smooth for reporting and no bottlenecks or hiccups and to resolve any issues with vendors..

Then I ask myself again.. Is this what I truely want???

Recently, a lot of questions popping out here and there.. What's a high profile person like me hiding in a hole in the current company???

But seriously, I do enjoy being unknown.. Haha.. Less responsibilities... But then again, I thrive best in challenges...

What will my future be??? I don't know..

Just really hope to have a partner for now..

I missed loving and being loved..

Empty for 6 long years already...