All over Again.. Vicious Cycle...

Life's vicious.. Really.. Haha..

Well, my RT started again today... Sianz..

Think the standard drop a lot leh.. Like the warming up also cannot make it one liaoz...

Didn't really do any exercise today..

*Haiz*...

Disappointment and Sadness..

Did very badly for the interviw today..

Reason: Didn't have enough sleep..

End up, interviewer say I more suited to Research Assistant..

Sianz.. Hope that they even consider me for Research Assistant loh..

Cos.. I like writing research papers.. Really...

I am just a boring person who likes to write and type.. wahaha...

Really no mood today.. sianz...

Is It Just Me Or????

*Sign*.. I don't know if it's just me or what.. But..

Today in meeting, my manager was saying that there are implementing some award to those who receive compliments from external parties..

Then, she pointed out that I had a few also and one of the people to receive that award..

I showed a puzzled face of course.. Kaoz.. I didn't put in any effort at work leh.. And I got so many back logs..

How come it's me again??? I don't think I deserve anything leh.. Cause I have not been performing at all loh...

But I know my HOD don't like me lah.. Haha.. Can tell from his face and his body language.. :p

Who cares??? They give me money, then I take loh.. wahaha...

And yar.. I came home early again today... Think people will start to backstab me soon in office.. Especially since I don't mix with them nor do I deserve that award.. Haha..

Last time I always work late, and they say why I don't want to go home etc etc... Then I go home early, they say I always go home early..

Got one best.. That time I always work late and then say,"See how long you can last".. He lucky I never shoot him back... But, I will always remember it.. I'm a petty man.. Haha.. Expect nothing less from a Virgo man... :p

And now, that person is promoted to a supervisor.. But I don't really bother.. I don't respect him anyway.. Haha.. Only know how to talk.. Know nothing much..

What disgust me most is this one plump lady who's interested in him and her seat is directly facing him.. She always feed his ego..

Cannot tahan.. Madness.. I wonder how much longer can I take this kind of working environment..

Kaoz... Means if I put in effort, I will be almost the king liaoz???

Enough of my rumblings.. Haha..

Just puzzled as to how things really work in the workplace.. Still can't get it.. Or is it just because I am too good for low-level jobs???

Should put me in a higher position mah.. Wahaha.. Or just let me be king... :p

Meaning of.. Stress

After so many years, I have finally know the meaning of stress..

It is an unseen snake..

It wounds around and grips your heart till you have no strength over it..

It bares its fangs and pumps its poison into the body, cause it to lose every single bit of psychological will..

Yes.. I am stress.. Not at work.. But.. at an upcoming job interview..

Super stress.. Because it is my dream job.. And I find myself quite lacking.. Do I have enough time to go through all the textbook theories??

Do I have the time to do environmental scanning to get a more detailed idea???

Do I have the time to update myself with technological improvements???

Do I have the time to learn and use pivot tables????

Do I have the time to memorize all the formulas for financial analysis???

3 hours of interview... What will they do in three hours???

Write a report and present it???

Do I even have the capability and skill to do it???

Doubtful of myself now..

Or maybe it's just that I am feeling physically sick now.. haha..

Wishes for 2008...

Haha.. Before I forget.. What I hope for in 2008..

1) Career

Hope to find a good job and stay for a while to develop my career ba... Haha..

2) Girlfriend

*Signz*.. Every year, it's the same wish but never get anything.. Haha.. Somehow, it seems like it has become a routine for me.. Or is it a curse???

3) Dream PC

Haha.. Yar.. My dream of an Ultimate PC yet again.. Maybe yes, maybe no.. See how the market goes.. Cause a lot of new stuffs coming out.. Getting a bit blur.. Haha..

4) Parents stop nagging at me to find gf, get married and give them a grandchild..

Gosh.. They should be satisfied for now that my 2nd elder bro has given them a grandson.. Hope they stop nagging at me.. I just cannot find a suitable match..

And given my character, if no suitable match and just anyhow choose, the relationship won't be long also and the gal will most probably end up crying for me again..

Then sianz.. Add to the list of gals crying and hating me.. Don't want lah.. I don't like to end up in the hated list one leh... Haha.. I am a kind man also.. :p

5) Masters (MBA) from either UK Uni or USA Uni

Hopefully I guess.. Get an MBA.. Cause my brother has achieved that while I haven't.. Haha..

Guess that's all for now.. Don't really have any pinnings for anything more.. Haha..

And I am still lazy to get a car license.. Haha..